Now it's time to wait . . . .

So I went down to the courthouse last week and submitted my paperwork to have my charge dismissed. I finally heard back from them yesterday that they received my request and, once they make a judgment, they will get back to me. So now I'm just waiting. I'm hoping that they approve my request so I can get on with my life. I have literally been at a standstill for 2 years. No job, no income, no life. At least I was able to complete my prerequisites for Nursing school while I was waiting so that I can get right into that. However, Nursing school has a 2 year waiting list out here. More waiting!

I worry what will happen if they deny my request again. With a felony charge of theft on my record, it makes getting a job anywhere very difficult. Not for nothing, I mean, people need to work wherever they can, but I'm the type of person that needs some sort of stimulation when I work. I don't feel like I could get that type of stimulation working at Burger King, if they would even hire me. 

I hate that Douche-bag put me in this position. I hate that he was such a manipulative asshole that doesn't give a shit about any of his kids! I hate living at my parents house and having my siblings look at me like I'm a loser. I hate having to share my room with my daughter, not because I don't like being in the same room with her because that's fun, but because we together have so much stuff, it's too much for one room! I hate that I can't give her everything I want to give her because I put my trust in someone that never deserved it. I hate that I have to pick up all the pieces by myself!

I love how much my parents help me and how much trust they have in my despite my poor decisions in the past. I love how my little girl doesn't ask where her daddy is because her Poppy is a better example for a daddy than Douche-bag could ever be. I love how surprised she is that I am keeping a binder of all her silly drawings. I love watching my daughter sleep. All in all, I really have a lot going for me, but I would be no where without the help from my parents.

Next time: Fun with cooking