Several times during the day I find my mind wandering. What am I going to do if I never get my record cleared? I have no idea how I am going to support my child! To be honest, my parents are not going to live forever, and that scares the shit out of me. How am I going to get a job as a felon? I don't understand how convicted felons that do years in prison and then get released get jobs! I didn't even serve any time and I can't get a second glance at an application. I should hear back soon about whether or not the courts are going to dismiss the charge against me. Then I get to plan the next part of my life, trying to become a nurse at 35. Still though, I have that nagging thought in the back of my head, what if I'm stuck being a felon for the rest of my life? I only have so much in this world, but it won't matter if I can't live on my own. What is my daughter going to think of me when she gets older? It's bad enough that her father is a deadbeat loser, but to have two loser parents? I don't want her to grow up pitying me! I will do everything in my power to make sure that G never sees me that way. That she is always happy and well taken care of. I'll figure out a way.
Next time: Something a little less painful
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